There are times when you just have to arouse your heart to wake up. The Bible says;
" There is no one who calls on Your name, who arouses himself to take hold of You; for You have hidden Your face from us and have delivered us into the power of our iniquities. Isaiah 64:7."
You don't have to make that mistake! If you don't arouse your heart to believe and love the shine from God's face, then the power of sin will just keep getting stronger until you fall.
Wake yourself up by strong and assertive thanks and praise for the truth. You can enter before the Lord. You can enjoy the shine from His face. You can take hold of God.
God has made a way.